What It Means to Fall in Love with a Lost Boy

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means seeing the beauty on dark heavy clouds, on sad songs, on wilted roses, and in broken things like him.

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means crying on his sweatshirt at midnight when he forgot to call you for six days. You question his love for you since day one on a 3 o’clock in the morning and you ended up writing a pathetic poem of what you thought is poetry.

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means giving him a faint smile when he ask your forgiveness with bended knees on his ripped jeans. And you pull him up, hold him close and you kiss him while your tears came running down your rosy cheeks because after all those things he did to you, you love him, you will always love him.

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means seeing love as black and white. You see the whole place full of pitfalls and believing that you both can conquer this drifting world.

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means listening to all the lyrics of his favorite songs and trying to be familiar with every word there was, thinking how there might be something you’re missing about him. It’s like decoding a secret actually and feeling idiot of yourself for thinking so.

When you fall in love with a lost boy it means losing some part of yourself and giving it to him trying to make him whole again. This is when you thought you could fill the misplaced parts of him but realizing you couldn’t.

But when you fall in love with a lost boy, maybe, just maybe, somewhere in yourself, you are lost too.