To The Boy I Loved Since I Was 11,

My graduation is nigh  — it made me think of you. You've been my inspiration, thank you very much. I wonder if you must have been so proud of me for reaching this far or if you know how I am doing. I still remember you rooting for me  before— you and I were so full of innocence back then. It made me sad not seeing you for a very long time. 

The truth is, I can't still disregard my fondness for you for the past eight years. I always remember you on every project, on the deadlines , on the histories and stories we analyzed, and even the little things like holding a pen and writing on paper. But dearest childhood sweetheart, for all we know, where does an 11-year-old love takes? It just made me believe how powerful first loves are. You left me with so wonderful memories and each of it motivates me to be a good person, better even. 

I miss you and I wonder what kind of life awaits for me. But for sure, it's a kind of life where you are not there — but it will still be good and worth living.

The tree where we used to sit and talk grew so big and strong already. And the 13-year-old boy whom I once dreamed to share a future with, shares a life with his new little family. 

Wherever you are right now and whoever you have become today — thank you for haunting me with all the sad and beautiful memories we once shared!

Written last May 2017.